Have you ever felt so down that you think there is no way you will ever climb out of the hole you are in? This weekend is one of those times. I don’t know why……..well, I do know a few reasons but, it has never made me feel quite like this. Last night I thought I might pull out of it. Allison and I were scanning the channels for something exciting to watch on a Saturday night. She likes watching movies and has become fond of the classics they show on PBS. Last nights feature was West Side Story. I have never seen this movie or the musical in a theater, so I decided it would be a great selection. Allison thought there was too much “romance” and waited anxiously for “some real action”. She was disturbed by one part, but I explained it to her and she seemed ok with it. It is where Anita goes to tell Tony that Maria will be detained and the Jets “attack” her in the soda shop. All in all, we both gave it a thumbs up. Rita Moreno rocks in this film. I then watched Saturday Night Live and caught a few laughs and liked listening to Maroon 5. But, this morning I still feel that urge to run away. I have done all the things they tell you to do. I am out of bed, dressed and ate a light breakfast. I cleaned the kitchen and folded some laundry. I played with the dog and refereed a few battles between the kids. Still, I just want to get in the van and drive really fast to nowhere in particular. I’m still taking my anti-depressants and it is sunny outside so those two things don’t really factor in. I don’t know. I just want to feel the wind whipping through my hair and know that when I do return I will not have any responsibilities. No such luck, though. As I type, Bryce is wanting a drink of tea, Brady wants an banana and Allison is telling me there is nothing to do today. So, where is Chuck? He is at work. As usual. And there you have it: AS USUAL. That pretty much sums up my life. Nothing is ever going to change.
Joy Behar is my Hero!
Wow, I never thought I would ever utter those words. This woman and I have extremely different views on so many topics that I never felt like I would be rooting for her in a hot topic discussion on The View. One thing led to another and autism and vaccinations was brought up. Rosie said(I paraphrase) that the mercury in the vaccinations seems to be a possible cause for the autism. It became more apparent between the years of 1991 through 1995 and that the government did a recall on those mercury laced vaccines BUT did not recall ALL of them. Joy responded, with the question if there was mercury in the vaccines and this is linked to autism, then how come not all children who were vaccinated during the 91-95 time period did not acquire this disorder. I swear I jumped up from the recliner and started screaming YES YES YES YES at the television. Finally another person who is thinking the same way I am about all of this. The fact that it was Joy was unbelievable, but who cares. Another living, breathing human being was speaking my thought on national television. Then in the background Elisabeth says that a child who was given a tainted vaccine coupled with him or her being predisposed with a certain chemical make-up could be more of a target(again paraphrasing). But, I don’t think anyone really heard what she said because by this point they were all talking at once. I also agree with Elisabeth. A chemical make-up of a child is what starts the ball rolling on the path towards autism. Of course that is my very humble opinion.
Jenny McCarthy was a guest co-host last week and she “confirmed” that her 5 year old son is autistic. Why she had to “confirm” to the American public is beyond me, but she has written a new book about this and will be back in the fall to talk about it. She used words like “my big mouth” and “blow the cover off” in describing how she would be addressing the issue. This has led me to believe that she is journeying down Vaccination Road and I am very sorry to hear that, if that is the case. My blood just boils when I hear people blaming this on the mercury because they are not scientists, they are people like me. Everyone is entitled to their opinion but, I also feel like they don’t want to look at this with an open mind. You may say that I am not being the open-minded one. I am. I realize that the vaccine could be a possibility. I also realize that in my son’s case the pieces don’t all fit together.
So, for today, JoyBehar you are my HERO!
